“I’ve had it,” she told me. “And it’s only been 9 months.” This is a smart, capable, intelligent, compassionate new nurse, a former Michigan Nursing Students Association Board member, and a friend. I remember her excitement and nervousness about taking the NCLEX. I remember the excited Facebook posting when she passed and then when she was hired. And now she’s had it. After 9 months.
She wasn’t naive about the nursing profession. She was fully aware of short staffing and paperwork and all the things that drive nurses crazy. She went into her first job with her eyes wide open.
And yet, something has gotten to her. She didn’t specify and I didn’t ask but it probably wasn’t one thing. I imagine it was months of frustration. If there’s one thing I know about her, she was committed to being able to care for and educate her patients. I would guess that she’s been robbed of those opportunities, whether it’s through poor management or not enough co-workers or just too many patients.
I wish I could say that’s the first time I’ve ever had an MNSA Board member tell me that they’ve had it, but unfortunately it happens quite frequently. To me, MNSA Board members are the best of the best, the cream of the crop, and when I hear them wondering about their chosen profession within the first 12 months of their practice, I have to wonder what we’re missing.
I’m sorry, my friend, I really am. I wish I could make things better for you. I’m heartsick that the dream you held for your career has turned into a nightmare. All I can say is – get out of where you’re at before it eats you alive and look for a better practice situation.
You’re just too good for us to lose you.